Th3 L0st D@ne

"At the moment"

2006-07-23T13:35:00.000-07:00

... The society sets demands to us as individuals. That's a fact that its unchangeable.

However, what about this one: We set equal demands to the society, and, in particular, the people surrounding us?!..

Think of how we form our life, how we equally build up relationships, and (sub cuntiosly) are in a constantly demand of a huge beam of whatever we now need as being what we are!. In a work relation, intellectual challenge, and in a personal relationship, the "constantly confirmation, appreciation and whatever ingredients that now makes the relationship".
Even if we want to admit it (or not) I think that we are no different; - the people who unhappily chose to share their life and become married for 40 years (wondering about what made them do it). Anyway..

The "give and take": I think, is that not the most normal thing; - in any sort of relationships, - to give, and then get back!..

Important factor!...

Witness the lost

2006-07-20T05:53:00.000-07:00

A few days ago, I heard a program on the radio. That sort of things happen to me quite often, but this time, I ended up being puzzeled and had some feelings I had to deal with.

The program was about the Alzheimers disease; - and the graduate change family members face when that very person (could be a mom, or in this case a Dad) goes from the state of completely normality to having the condition.

More specifailly, it told about a "present" that this son chosed to give his dad the very last present (a trip across USA) and they took it weeks before the Altzheimer kicked in; - got sound clips from moments where the memory was completly clear, and moments where dad "basically had forgot everything".

The painful in that process is that the chance is not coming from one moment to an other, but that its a slow process. Both "the patient" and the relatives can very well identify the changes, - and (for the relatives) the result.

Experiences like that reminds of the fact that our life is limited and very much something that we cant take for granted. With that in mind, it also just confirm me in my personal goal: "The life-quality of the moment should always be the priority"....

We start again

2006-07-14T23:58:00.000-07:00

with something that could form itself out to be really really interesting...

:)

To have appreciation for what we got..

2006-07-11T11:52:00.000-07:00

To appreciate the part of our life that we have?!.
I am not talking about going down to a superficial or materialistic level, but about thinking of those small elements in each our life, that makes it all worth while!

For instance: our life: in my case, I have blessed this world with about 10.200 days of my presence, I know that one day, I wouldn't be here anylonger -yet I also know that my contribution (hopefully) have made the difference for, at least, a few people.
I also know that people that have passed my life have been contributing with loads of stuff; - and today, some of those is not here anylonger either!. However, those "transactions" of give-and-take contributions is one of the most basal, normal and beautiful acts that we have in our life!. Do we remember to appreciate that?

My point is: Life is a gift; fact is that we don't know when it will be taken from us. So why not try to get the best out the gift, - learn to see and learn to appreciate its real value?!.

hugs,

Rather odd,

2006-07-11T01:21:00.000-07:00

Its rather odd: even after years of distance, you feel that when you see your parents, they do treat you exactly as when you where spending all your life with them. Ofcourse we all change (and get matured), but in the end, we fall back to the old paterns and roles!.

Had my parents around this weekend; - visit frej12jen.dotphoto.com for pictures

"The designated role"

2006-07-07T04:02:00.000-07:00

It´s funny to conclude that even after years away, we always have the same role as when we left. Like as you get back to your home-town and find that nothing have changed "at all", you also realize that the role you had when you lived home, have been saved (really well) to the moment you are back.
You could have been travling around the world (twice) but back home, you would be the very same boy and even (without thinking of it) you would fall back to the same routines and role patterns.

Why think of that?!. Yea, my parents (and one sister) will spend the weekend with me. Going to be an interesting weekend..
:)

:)

2006-07-06T04:30:00.000-07:00

Today is a day with a lot of good music on my IPOD, and dreams about becomming a "bed tester"; someone who would be able to just sleep all day!.

Being in a position where you know that theres nothing to do, - for the next 3 months!.. Will explain later.

Goal....

2006-07-05T07:20:00.000-07:00

... its always a funny feeling when getting asked "what is your goal?!" or even better "what do you want to achieve with your life?"...
Sometimes, I get the impression that we all are supposed to have set an agenda for our life, - that we have a set list of the things we need to achieve- and that list is not for discution.

Am I odd when thinking "well, isn't it about having fun"?

Is it being "careless" to think "living in the moment, instead of caring about what will happen in ten years"?.

My goal - is to be happy, and as it seems right now, I feel that it have been partly achieved...

Almost 5 years ago

2006-07-02T06:26:00.000-07:00

We are well aware of what September 11 made in our history and in our individual awareness of what's going on around us.
I am very sure of that we have each our own account on what we did that very day, - how we manage to cope to the tremendously amount of compounded information and feelings!.

On my own account, I was (at that very day) working as something as silly as a ticket-sales dude at the local train station; - I remember that even as fare away as in Denmark, some people basically needed somewhere to go, and I had some people comming to "check up"...

Anyway, recently, I fount a website that have the sole purpose to save audio recordings from the very day: - outtakes from the Local NPR station WNYC, - recordings of the Police and Fire frequencies and even voicemail recordings (from & to family members and friends).
It is very hard stuff - not only the actual context but also the tone of peoples voice - the
fear but also the unity about "getting tru this together".

The websites name is "The Sonic Memorial Project". For me, it was worth a visit - to get things in prespective..

The recipe for trubles :)

2006-07-01T06:24:00.000-07:00

You will need:

An employment you really dont like.
A Kickoff with free alcohol
That very manager you really dis-like.

Recipe:

You take the employment and add the kickoff, and then shake it!.
You then add the free alcohol in rather large doses.
You then finish it by adding the "very manager you dislike" as topping.

... My evening yesterday!

Uhm?!..

2006-06-29T13:20:00.000-07:00

Its extremly odd; - I think I need the time to get myself adjusted to the fact that I have got a blog, - so many times Ive thought: "Daam, if I just had...." and now finally when I got one again, Its like , uhm what should I write about?!.

Experience learned me to be patient; - also in regars to stuff like this!. I havent lost earth contact, and ofcourse I have all my stuff to share:

Just need to become a: born again blogger....

Lets do a bit of recap...

2006-06-29T02:10:00.000-07:00

... so, what have happened the past year or so.

The biggest thing must be that I left Scotland and IBM; - what happened was that, in late October, i got enough of all the stress that was related to my stay over there, so I basicially took my stuff and left.
In between then and now, I have managed to be "really sick" for three weeks, been two months in USA and uhm, got a work in Holland...

Soo thats where we stay right now .... more to come !

After long time absence.....

2006-06-29T01:51:00.000-07:00

I am back with my wonderful world of funny thoughts!...